Let’s just rip this BandAid off. I haven’t posted in over a year because I’ve been struggling with weight maintenance. There. That’s better. What I love about the UAMS program that helped me lose over 250 pounds is when I walked in the clinic door last week having gained about a hundred pounds back, they didn’t do any of the negative things I worried they might. They just said, “Daniel! We’re glad to see you!”
That was me this weekend waiting to start a Color Dash 5K to benefit KUAR, our local public radio station. It had been a while since I walked that distance, but I made it through the whole course at my own pace. I remember walking about 3 miles with a coworker each day on our lunch hour at my previous school. I miss those walks.
How does this happen? More calories in than out. I’m confident that if I went to the gym and swiped my card tomorrow, confetti and balloons would fall from the ceiling. We don’t want that. I honestly don’t know the last time I went to the gym, and I’m too ashamed to look it up.
I do know that Wendy’s has kids meals on sale after 4PM for $1.99 each. I also know where you can still find Cadbury Creme Eggs for 27 cents. I know too well where $1.59 will buy you a cinnamon roll the size of your face with more than a quarter inch of cake frosting on the top.
I know that one pound of fat is equivalent to 3,500 calories. I know that weight gain occurs when an individual consumes more calories than he expends. I know how to plan a healthy meal. I know how to cook foods low in fat, high in fiber, and rich in flavor. I know. I know.
It’s not about what we know. It’s about what we do.
What I’m doing is re-enrolling in the UAMS weight loss program and joining a Foundations I class. I’m walking the walk with a room full of new patients who are simultaneously excited and frightened as they begin their own journeys.
We all had the same question at some point, “What if this doesn’t work?” What if it does? It did for me, and it will again. I walk into this classroom knowing what the end-game looks like, and this time I’m going to make the most of every session, picking up the knowledge, skills, and abilities that I missed the first time so I can be sure I’ll never have to retrace these steps again.
The lyrics to a show tune keep coming to mind at this moment. “I know where I’m going, and I know where I’ve been.”